Often I get let down in life, just like you and everyone
around you.
But enough is enough, I've been used and abused, far too
often to allow it to continue any longer.
Time and time again, people offer to help with something and
in reality they are only looking to gain either personally, professionally or
financially. Enough is enough.
I don't play politics and I don't have an ego (So I'm told)
My problem is I'm too trusting, too forgiving and I think it's time I changed
all that and stopped being a super highway for other people's egos.
There is only so many times you can be used and abused.
There are so many times you can lose your job because someone decides you make
them look bad.
There are only so many times that offers of help are stymied
by those only looking for personal gain.
There are only so many times, you can offer your hand in
friendship to help others and they walk all over you.
Well starting today, things are going to change.
I always said that "You can only rely on you and you
only" Well that is now so true, it's almost criminal.
I am beginning to understand why people turn into loners and
Lonely old women with a 100 cats. I really can.
I have my darling husband, he'll keep me tethered and stop
me turning into that mad woman down the street with a 100 cats, I'll make a concession
and only keep 2.
I won't hoard animals, but I certainly won't hoard associates
nor useless, using friends.
I'm sick of the tears, I'm sick of feeling angry and frustrated.
I'm sick of feeling used and abused.
My ability to trust has slowly been eroded over the years
and tonight was the last straw. my trust just collapsed into a chasm deeper
than I thought possible.
My spirit might be broken, but my soul is still my own,
no-one will ever own that.
AND if you are reading this from on the internet and I haven't
met you in person. I'm sorry - but you don't rate in any of this. But I can't
trust you until I meet you. End of story.