Tuesday, May 31, 2011

The Truck, the Commodore and the Fallout #30

Post 29
On the 15th May 1998 I was involved in car V truck accident, that saw a commodore shortened by 3 foot either end. The following entries are from a diary I kept at the time.

It’s now 13 years later and the pain is still here – the TAC of course have wiped their hands of me. I learnt a long time ago that the only person you can rely on is you and it’s something that has stood me in good stead for longer than I can remember.

11th March 1999

Last night I could not sleep and I got up at 2am and watched some TV. I'm not sure why, perhaps the pressures of recent events has caused the sleeplessness? I don't know. Let's see what happens tonight. If it happens again, then perhaps that's my sub-conscious saying stuff them, let them rot in hell and let the ship sink?

……… Have I mentioned that I am starting hate myself for letting all this happen? I feel in some way this must be my fault. Perhaps I could have avoided the accidents. I don’t know. …….

Perhaps all this is punishment for something I’ve done, perhaps all this is meant to make me a stronger or better person? Only one person knows and he doesn’t talk to ordinary people like me.

Good night.

Post 31

Post 1 - The Beginning

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